growing up

NEO46

i had a pretty rough childhood, and almost every day i dreamt of what my life would be like when i was older. even in elementary school i think i understood time enough to know there was a version of me that already existed, who was living and loving a life outside of the tyranny of parents and the headache of homework. i was eating ice cream for dinner and sleeping in a big canopy bed with my three cats. incredibly, i was right on all accounts. when i wrote this album, i didn't have a theme in mind, and when it was finally finished, i couldn't think of anything that glued everything together. but when i looked more closely, i noticed so much of my recent work has been about acknowledging life for what it is and embracing growth. there is a version of me that still exists, who is dreaming of a life in which they can spend all day working on art, who is surviving abuse and undiagnosed disorders, who is looking to me for guidance and love. i wish i could reach out to them and comfort them. so here is my attempt. this is an album dedicated to little summer: you made it, and it was worth it.